Courtney's+Camelot

=**PHILOSOPHY BRAINSTORMING:**// Who am I? //// What do I believe about life, truth, my future? //// What do I believe is my purpose? //// How does the way I live and approach life reflect who I am and what I value? //= • Think about what texts that we’ve read specifically connect to me – Big ideas, images, lines, etc.

**I refuse to look back and realize it is all empty. I refuse to regret. I need to not look forward, not to wait for tomorrow or summer, but instead recognize all the little beauties of today.** They are my essential self: the way my horse’s nose is softer than silky velvet, the soaring of a perfect jump or the laugh of my best friend and how open space sets me free in words that do not exist. I am made up of what is around me, and I learn to love. It is more important to live for what makes you soar than worry about messing up. It is important to remember release and remember innocence and **//remember only in darkness can we see light//**. How do you describe the color of laughter or what it feels like to fly without airplanes or explain something to which you cannot compare? **There are too many things that you cannot put into words or images to possibly worry about coloring inside the lines.**

A friend told me to be honest with you, so here goes…

“Dearest heart,” whispered she, Softly and rather sadly when her lips were close to his ear

Have faith in me You float like a feather Ina beautiful world My love and my Faith Was ** conveyed in terms too shady ** I said I’d never let you fall and I always meant it

Love is a fragile thing And we are not always the Best caretakers I am not a glass statue , Far too ungraceful His heart is hidden for a reason

As dotted lines move faster we’ll watch the night turn to day When the clouds hung oppressively low in the heavens And after this night I’ll cling to her skirts and follow her to Heaven

A belief is an idea that possess the mind Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world It’s a voice that whispers my name Like a song that stirs in my heart I’ve heard it in the silence

Dreams and anguish bring us together She was 16 and the best of us  Birds sing after a storm Sang a sweet melody ** Finding the words ** I couldn’t on my own I shall ever bear about me A memory of the many solemn hours I thus spent alone

In order for the light ** to shine ** so brightly, The darkness must be present Between the idea and the reality, Falls the shadow Between the essence and the descent, Falls the shadow

Fantasy abandoned by reason produces impossible monsters

For a time, they seem invincible. But in the end, they always fall. ** Always. **

Communion with her visible forms She speaks a various language And she glides into his darker musing, With a mild and healing sympathy In the end, we become disguised to ourselves ** Shipwrecked ** by laughter of the gods This error seems not sufficiently eradicated

I am fueled by all forms of failure Maybe ** you’ve started to compare to someone not there **** ? ** And I would wait and watch the hours fall into a hundred separate lines But time makes me bolder

We could study her brain ** for years ** And never know what made her tick I suppose That could be said for any one of us

Looking back and longing for the freedom of my chains ** The farther forward you will see ** Cause seeing clear would be a bad idea Taking everything for granted But we still respect the time There comes a time when you fade to blackness She’s a brick and I’m drowning slowly Off the coast and going nowhere I tried to stand up, stand on a prayer But I came crashing down

My hands were never cleaner We’ll sing like everyone when they’re alone A requiem We’re singing

Somewhere between the end And the point that we began There’s a fire burning brightly

** I haven’t got my wings yet ** The arch is alive, singing, a restless chord

The golden sun… All the infinite hosts of human are shining On the sad abodes of death

Black rose your thorns are cutting into me See it all ** The truth is rarely pure and never simple **

And innocence struggles with all its might Against the attempts of crime Within the core of each of us is the child we once wer e  Our past is our definition The radiance that once was so bright be now forever from my sight Sometimes the day just … ** ends ** We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind

** Unless, the angel of death is going through a Rube Goldberg stage **



A victim of the terrors to which he had anticipated Grab a hold of that little songbird Take her for a ride to the top of the world

Older burns are overturned I feel the salty waves come in  I’m right beside you, a dreamer you can do without You only hear the music when your heart begins to break

And still I see your reflection inside of my eyes That’s the way we play this game of life Down on its knees true love did fall We’re young and the world stopped breathing We’ll find you when the sun begins to break

**All the dreams in the world are tied to the strings of balloons**

Have…no significance But what we consciously give them And carry with it the beauty it visits and the song which enchants it

Possessed, as they became They were lighting cigarettes underwater Not everything is beautiful We can dance until we die

Lightning crashes Intentions fall to the floor Fairy tales don’t always have a happy ending, do they? Every song is out of tune But in the lights I’ll taste you in my tears And puts the glory out to hide There were sounds in my head Little voices whispering This is not the first exploding ambulance I’ve seen A perfect outline See ** I thought love was black and white **

Colors strewn on the wall Like paint that // misses its mark // A beautiful misconception

After a hurricane comes a rainbow Waking up beside yourself Now we are the kids from yesterday Old Ocean’s grey and melancholy waste – Every person that you need to be? The imitation of those whom we cannot resemble

She’s a blessed angel on earth The angel closes her eyes The pale blue colored iris ** The confusion that was hers **



To be awake is to be alive Its thin current slides away But eternity remains



How’s one to collect love, rage, hatred, fear…? These are things we’re trained to look for Dreams and anguish bring us together For a time The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone

Beneath the stain of time There is sacredness in tears Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair They are the mark not of weakness but of power They are messengers of overwhelming grief and of unspeakable love

In all of us lives a dark side. In the end, ** it’s as natural as the air we breathe **

I’ll t  ake the best of them and lead by example This isn’t what I want, but I’ll take the high road Generally it is the tortured who turn into torturers The wounds remain The key to a riddle is another riddle In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue And the pain lessens. But it is never gone.

** We cross our bridges when we come to them ** And breathless darkness, and the narrow house ** And burn them behind us, ** Are we yet secured against by the spirit of the times? ** With nothing to show for our progress except a memory and the smell of smoke. ** Go forth, under the open sky ** And the presumption that once our eyes watered **

A photograph is a secret about a secret. The more it tells you, the less you know.

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